The last few days have been silvery -and timeless. The territory looks the same at eight in the morning as it does as two in the afternoon. – and only the clock knows when it is noon. It has been cold and damp , true to the nature of January.
I spend a good deal of time by a window, I am surrounded by my books and plants and the boxer dozes under our shared blanket . Here, I wish and daydream . . .and remember. I read and I do try to take a walk daily around the territory.
Tres left on Thursday. I spent Friday in the “doldrums”. I had been home all week with an awful head cold and a tooth ache. On Friday I felt worse than before, but I assured a worried Jenny, it was because Tres left. Knowing me well, Jenny agreed.
I have at last, chosen a “study”. I want to learn to play chess! Christian has played since he was a mere child. I was glad of it, -and often wanted to learn, but housekeeping, cooking, mothering and a job, just did not afford such luxury.
Christian has agreed to teach me, which I find a wonderful idea. “The tables have turned” it seems, for now, I am the student and my youngest son, is the teacher! I may never win a single game or maybe I will not even like chess, for I am not a fan of board games in general. I want to learn, anyway.
The “Farmers’ Almanac” said it first, though the weatherman took all the credit . . .there was a chance of snow on Thursday. This is no small proclamation in the south. On Wednesday, the children nor the teachers, could scarce of anything else. It was fairly warm outside, but none of us gave up. When a child went to the window, I did not reprimand them, for I too looked every chance that I got. We have not had snow in a few years, so this was no small prospect for us.
By three o’clock, an announcement that school would be closed the next day was made. You barely needed a jacket at the “car line” yet that announcement seemed to confirm, that it would snow. Children were building snowmen and planning on hot chocolate -and hoping their parents knew how to make the snow cream, the older ones were talking about. I had my own dreams . . of coffee and my favorite house clothes, of writing and reading . . and a cake. The event of snow in the south, is a short lived affair, so we must all do a lot of everything and as quickly as possible!
The world was bright and white, when I woke on Thursday morning. Snow was still falling and had hushed the countryside.There was a few inches covering the territory . . .and the trees were just stunning. I gazed on their loveliness as if I were in some sort of trance, completely engulfed in their quiet but dazzling beauty. Authentic beauty, lacks the flash, of what we seem to be so accustomed to. There is nothing counterfeit or enhanced in nature, I thought, yet I do not find it lacking, but instead, deeply and profoundly beautiful.
I did make a cake. Another quest, I have been attempting, is to eliminate refined sugars in my cooking. I am using honey instead. I also will try maple syrup and molasses . Since baking is a science, I have been treading carefully. This is my third cake, today and so far so good. I am nervous about cookies, for longtime readers may remember that I had a terrible track record with cookies. For only, two short years now, I have been feeling confident . Maybe, I will just eliminate the restrictions on refined sugars, when it comes to cookies. Besides, I feel guilty about altering my great grandmothers’ recipe for tea cakes.
I finished the borrowed book, as the dark settled in. Outside the window, by the morning table, I saw the magic of moonlight on snow. I had forgotten all about the full moon. To have snow and moonlight all at once, was like holding a rare pearl. “The luster of midday” , I remembered . . . now with understanding. In a day or so, only remnants of the snow remained in shady places . . .and many a snow man, now frozen, could be seen in the yards where children lived.
I left for a weekend with the grand daughters, on Friday. Lyla and Brynn danced and squealed, celebrating my arrival . They clap their little hands and call out “Honeybee!” It never gets old. The cares of this world grow mighty dim, in those moments.
It was quite cold on Saturday, but Jenny bundled the little girls up and we went on a winter walk to deliver cake to “Aunt J”. Wills’ aunt lives in the same neighborhood and it seems such a short distance, The wind was fierce and blew like an angry, arctic gale-and so the walk seemed longer than a country mile, that day. I am a firm believer in children getting outside a lot and in all kinds of weather (and all folks really), but how nice it was to come home to a fire burning brightly and hot chocolate! Tres came over to help Will with an outside repair . It took all afternoon. Jenny and I started an evening meal that was both hearty and vegetarian, another new project for me.
I came home on Monday. The snow, followed by days of rain, had turned the yard in to a large mud puddle. There wasn’t a single ray of sun either. The countryside looked drab and untidy . . .so I remembered the irises and the pale blossoms of the peach tree to “tide me over” for a while. The earth is filled with promises, I reminded myself. This sparked a joy in my heart. Suddenly, I took a second look around me and noticed the many shades of silver in the sky. There were all sorts of chestnut and coppery browns and soft greys. Even the puddles were full of life. Soon, lamps would shine through the old windows of the farmhouse and the house would smell like supper. I chided myself for waiting for beauty, while in the midst of it. Sometimes. . . a second look, makes all the difference.
P.S. I can’t seem to add images, these days to my posts! Take my word for it, when I say the grandchildren are every bit as lovely as ever!