Light Changes Everything


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Friday, after the Holiday

Now, as I watch the night giving way to morning, and  that familiar sense of peace abides, I am flooded with things like hope, inspiration and gratitude.  I find it impossible to harbor resentment or have selfish ambitions, when light comes to life, before me.  Light, changes everything.    Dawn is a time of communion , worship and repentance for me-and I need all of it, on any given day.   This is why, I call this time, the “early service” . 

There has been quite a commotion at the rabbit patch, since Thanksgiving.  For a good while, there has been “a weak spot” in the floor, in my bedroom.  This is never good.  On Thanksgiving morning, as I was singing in the kitchen, the weak spot became an outright hole.  A hole is worse than a weak spot.  I was determined not to let this dampen my spirit on the holiday.  In that spirit, I kept repeating,” it is just a hole in a floor , it just a hole in the floor . . .”  Christian was quite amused that I consoled myself in this way.  I had been horror struck, when I first sighted the thing and on the day of “gratitude”, after all.  Somehow, my chanting helped me keep a proper perspective and remain grateful, that  a  hole in the floor . .  is just that.

I had no idea, that Tres had brought his tools along, with intentions of replacing the floor this very weekend.  He was quite unfazed when I told him about the calamity . . . after the  Thanksgiving dinner.  Yesterday, Tres went to work on that floor and while you could see the dirt under the rabbit patch, the realtor called.  She had someone interested in a tour.  That will surely need to be rescheduled.  A missing floor is not the same as a messy kitchen, or a yard covered in oak leaves.

Tres worked well past supper.  Christian worked late and then joined Tres in the effort, when he got home.  I told them to stop and rest-to leave it for tomorrow, but both boys were convinced that wasn’t a good idea, as varmints or a small army could invade, in the night.  So the new wood was installed and  hence, we could all sleep soundly.

Saturday

After a cold start, the day faired off .  By noon it was pleasant outside.  I thought of all the tasks I wanted  to complete and was spurred on by the mild climate- and the prospects of “a tour” in the near future.  It was “raining leaves”, as Lyla says.  Today, was not the day to clean the yard.  Supper may be late, a few nights this week, because of that.  The sycamores are almost bare, but an oak is still fully adorned  in scarlet .  When the last of the autumn colors have faded, then will I decorate for the beloved Christmas time. 

I moved the geraniums from the porch.  This will be their third winter inside the farmhouse.  They are like old friends to me now.  Likewise, the fall wreath came off the front door .  I straightened the storage unit, which didn’t take too long.  I straighten the pantry too.   I had put on a pot of dried beans, as Tres loves them.  The beans simmered as-Tres kept working on the floor. 

Christian got off work by suppertime.  Both boys went back to work on the floor, after we ate.   They worked several  more hours, by the light of a dainty chandelier.

Sunday

Christian, left at daybreak, to go to work.  I was hoping he had the day off.  Tres has to make the almost three hour drive back to Wilmington, today-after he finishes the floor.  As Tres improves the farmhouse,  I am glad for whoever, lives here next.  It is like preparing a gift, of sorts.  I felt the same way, as I was adding a new rose bush in the spring.  I knew my intentions, to move, then.  I felt like I was planting a rose for someone else-and I was glad, when I considered that.  I thought of these things as the first faint light came to the sky.  By the time the light had become shine,  I had collected my thoughts and made sense of most of them. 

I decided to make a pot of chicken and pastry-enough for Tres to take some home with him.  I want to try to make Mamas’ baked cornbread, but I need to get my nerve up first.  Twice before, I have tried without one iota of success.  There is a trick to baking crispy cornbread.  I have never been fond of cornbread that comes out like a cake.  I had never even had it, til I started school.  The cafeteria served it at least once a week.  My second grade teacher was a firm believer, that children should “clean their plates”.  She would inspect our trays, to ensure this.  I stuffed that awful cornbread in my milk carton and passed inspection.  I did the same with “spanish rice”  and the green peas, they never bothered to season.  In this way, I survived the second grade lunch program . . .as well as “modern math”.

Tres was up not long after  Christian left.  At breakfast, he told me  he was concerned that he would not finish today.  He was in a good deal of distress over this and it showed.  This really touched me deeply.  I assured me him, it was fine, if he wasn’t able to do another thing.  Still, he ate quickly and made a mad dash to pick up more supplies. 

When Tres came back, we devised a plan so he could leave at a decent hour.  Thankfully, Kyle came home and Tres could leave with out needing to rush so.  There will be a “trail” through the hall to navigate for a while.  

Kyle and I worked outside and gathered another load of things to be carried to the trash, as we cleaned the garage.  We made sure all of the barns were orderly, this past summer, but truthfully, more things could go.  I inherited a lot of  it, when I moved here.  We made good progress and so, supper was late.

What a wonderful holiday, it has been for the rabbit patch-in spite of  that dreadful hole in the  floor.   I have eaten well in the best of company for several days.  I have sat in the presence of friendly fires.  I lingered at the “early services” for as long as I pleased.   . .I stood beneath an oak tree that rained rubies around me- and I spent a  fair amount of time, singing in the kitchen.

Dearest Diary,  I loved Thanksgiving !

 

 

 

 

Love That Does Wonders


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Thanksgiving Day has dawned  with low peach colored light.  The woodland trees behind the old barn look like black lace, in the absence of their leaves.   The house was chilly enough for a small fire. The flames flicker and flash light in a cheerful fashion.  A fire improves any room and makes an occasion out of ordinary moments.  I am glad for a time that calls for a fire.

Yesterday was a half day, at the school where I work .  For seventeen years, a group of  young violinists  that have advanced in the repertoire, carol and deliver pies to a housing complex just a few miles away from the campus.  It is one of my favorite events of the whole year.  We delivered more than 50 pies and the children were well mannered.  Service is the best way I know of to develop a noble character.

I had to make a mad dash to the grocery afterwards.  Of course, it was a full house.  Everyone was so friendly and happy.  The atmosphere was lively and happy.  I felt sorry I had dreaded it so.

Now, I love the eve of every holiday.  I love the cooking for as I go along in the kitchen making dishes,  I remember that Connie loves collards and Jenny loves cheesecake.  I wonder what Lyla will fancy this year . . and will my niece Hayley bring her boyfriend?  I make the biscuit dressing that everybody loves and remember Grandmama telling me how to make it. 

I often say, that cooking in anticipation of a family gathering, is one of my favorite pursuits.  I love washing the linens and brewing special blends of fine coffee. . .Mostly, I love waiting for the oldest children to come home.  Cash, my dog gets caught up in the merriment and is quite alert.  He goes from one window to another peering out, waiting, for he knows somehow, as I do  that something wonderful awaits.

By the time, the peach like light, had faded.  I was cooking a very large pot of collards.  Tres and Kyle slept by the warmth of the wood heater and all seemed right, at that moment.  This year, Thanksgiving is at Mama and Daddys’ house just after the noon hour.

Thanksgiving Afternoon

We all arrived in shifts, and with ours arms full of dishes.  The kitchen was noisy and busy with all sorts of activities going on.  There was not one complaint about anything on the table.  Hayley did not bring her boyfriend.   Christian brought his guitar and my nephew Brandon said he would bring his at Christmas.  Of course Lyla, being the youngest by far, got a fair share of attention.  We all agreed that she is a special child, as we have done with every child born to us, before her.  I think families ought to let the children know how precious  they are.  I do not think a child gains confidence with “false praise”  or  responding to their every desire with elaborate indulgences.   . .nor with excuses for poor behavior.    These things do not serve anyone-  But a sense of belonging to a family that is just  glad you were born, does wonders and can sustain you all of your life.   At least, it has for me.

We all left as we came, in shifts.  This time  our arms were full with the last of the green bean casserole, pecan pie and turkey.  Mama and Daddy are well stocked for a few meals.  The extra chairs were returned to the garage, trash was taken out and the kitchen was restored to good order.  Christmas decorations were retrieved from the attic so that when the “spirit moves in Mama”, she can act on it. 

Friday Morning, Very Early

I have not yet made a fire, but I ought to. It is a cold and bright morning.  None of us have ever gone shopping as millions do, the day after Thanksgiving.  My heart is too full to want for anything.  Instead, I will make a fire, and remember  all that unfolded yesterday . . .while I was in the company of those that are glad I was born and whose love . . . does wonders.

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Those whose love does wonders

 

 

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Me -with my “Pride and Joys”
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When Leaves Cover the Rabbit Patch


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As usual, I woke early, this morning. It  was dark and rain was falling.  I had the window up, as it has been so mild.  How good it felt to lie there, without a bit of hurry, and just listen to wind and rain sweeping  across the territory.  Cash, my boxer and my cat, Christopher Robin were snuggled together .  What a cozy effect it   made and it felt wonderful to be part of it.  The wind was steady blowing and I imagined the leaves were coming unfastened in great numbers.  I had to smile at the irony, as I had just cleaned the yard yesterday. 

While the room was still dimly lit, I got up .   I am ready for coffee as soon as I wake and besides that, am just not prone to stay in bed for long.  When it was light enough to survey the conditions, I saw leaves being flung wildly, in the wind.  Many had met their destiny and were scattered all over the rabbit patch.   

The wind blew all day, though the rain stopped before noon.  I did some light housekeeping and eventually went on a short shopping spree.  It was a spur of the moment idea, but as it turns out,  I found a special gift for Lyla.  Jenny is a very sensible mother and does not want Lyla over indulged in possessions, therefore I take the utmost care to adhere to this.   I am in full agreement  with Jenny  and so glad she takes this stance.    Having said this, I am still so very excited to share Christmas with Lyla this year. 

Monday

Monday comes, and that changes everything. I always say . . for it really does.   It was cold this morning.  There was a heavy frost and I regretted not warming the car, almost immediately.  The sun came up announcing  the morning boldly with brilliant rays.  For a short while, the woodlands looked aflame while the frost sparkled.  It was a lovely affair.  It looks and feels like Thanksgiving, I thought.

 Holidays evoke feelings for me, more than anything else.  Each holiday seems to have a particular nature .   At Thanksgiving, of course we are grateful.  We tend to reflect on all we are glad for.  Traditions are born by way of things like Thanksgiving- and become rituals with years of practice.  My sister, Delores, brought a broccoli  casserole to Thanksgiving dinner, decades ago.  Daddy was not fond of it, though the rest of us were.  She brought it for several years and then without warning skipped a year.  Daddy, along with the rest of us, asked as we surveyed the table, where it was. He seemed disappointed.  She has not skipped a year since.   I am not fond of cranberry sauce, but I do expect it  to be on the table. Tres, my second son, loved to break the wishbone with Mama when he was very young.  Though Tres, towers over the most of us now, he still breaks the wishbone with Mama, every year, at Thanksgiving.  

With all  the steady and dramatic changes in the world to endure,  I have come to take great comfort in familiar things.  This may be one of the reasons, I love fields and woods . . .and laughing rivers.  These things are constant and do not yield to whims.  

Today, as I drove past the woodlands, I couldn’t help but notice the striking colors of the maples and dogwoods.  It was like seeing an autumn rainbow.  Then I noticed the pines.  They were the only green in the forest and seemed quite insignificant- yet the pine is an evergreen, and will remain as it is now, even in January.  There is something beautiful about that, I think.  Birds that stay through the winter, can depend on the pine . . .and so can I.

In spite of my affection for things that remain reliable, I am glad for the progress of mankind.  The many conveniences of modern times, certainly lend ease to life-and then  too, there are the discoveries that save  lives or improve our health.  Last but not least, the wealth of knowledge, we can accumulate is a most valued asset.  

Truly, there is much to be thankful for and  certainly, not only on Thanksgiving.  I will count the blessings of a table of gathered loved ones-and laden with food.  We will eat in a fine shelter, in good health.  Yet, I will not forget to be glad for things like pines and fields . .  and wishbones . . .and  also the time when leaves cover the rabbit patch.

A Bit of Light


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While November, has a fair share of “silver days”, there are golden ones too.  Yesterday,as I was driving to work, the sun came up and turned the territory to gold.  Barren fields were the color of honey, in the first hours  and the woodlands, gilded in gold, were nothing short of spectacular.  Now today, I see the rabbit patch, through the window by the “morning table”, lit up with light the color of marigolds, and I declare it a picture-and name it “Morning Glory”.  

The sycamore and oak leaves have carpeted the yard , without mercy.  I must tend to this today.  Thankfully, I can mulch the leaves with the mower, but it is slow tedious work.  Kyle started yesterday, but he can not bear riding along in the low gear, the task requires.  

I am especially looking forward to another task today.  Tonight, Will, Jenny and Lyla are going to have supper with us, at my parents house.  Mama is cooking string beans  and we will fry chicken.  There is also turnips and potatoes to be creamed and macaroni & cheese to be made.  At some point Mama and I have to make the decision about whether to have biscuits or cornbread.  Mama can bake cornbread, crispy and thin.  I must learn how to perform the same miracle with the simple cornmeal.

Circumstances have prevented me from seeing Lyla, for several weeks.  I have missed her “like rain”.  So much happens in a matter of weeks, when children are so young.  Just this week, she used the word “impossible”.  Jenny had walked in the nursery and found it littered with blocks and books.  She told Lyla, that it had to be cleaned.  Lyla surveyed the chaos, and said “it was impossible” !  Mind you Lyla is  just two .  She ordered “broccoli please” at a restaurant, this week-and Lyla does not like broccoli, but apparently was not going to pass up a moment to use her new skill.  Jenny said when they left, Lyla said “bye people!”   oh, what will she tell me tonight!

I decided to make a dish with grapes as I had so many-and Lyla loves them.  Some people call it “grape salad”, but that sounds awful to me.   It really is just a concoction of grapes in a light, creamy sauce made with cream, brown sugar and cream cheese and it  is just sweet enough  to be  considered a light dessert.  I looked out the kitchen window, as I cut the grapes.  I felt so content to be in the kitchen preparing food for a family gathering .  I watched leaves fly by the window in the steady breeze, like autumn confetti.

I dreaded the mowing and put it off until I couldn’t, in good conscience, find another excuse.  It was quite mild outside after all.  I began mulching the leaves and as I did,  I saw tender, green grass  beneath the leaves, that reminded me of April.  Later on, I came across some wild hyacinths, with maple leaves scattered around them.

I mowed a good while, but didn’t finish.  I came in as there was a lot of chicken to fry.  I got to Mama and Daddys’ right on time.  Mama had her string beans cooking and was making the cornbread.  I paid special attention to that.  I was almost finished frying the chicken, when Will, Jenny and Lyla, drove up.  Lyla and I hugged for a long while.  

Mama gave Lyla a fancy little lantern, and since it was so warm out, Lyla and I took a walk around the yard.  We both enjoyed that.  In the absence of stars and moon, the countryside was dark and quiet. . .but Lyla “let her little light shine”.  What a difference just that bit of light  made.   I thought to teach her the song, over the holidays.

When we came in, Will and Daddy were in the den , watching the “news”  and Mama and Jenny were in the living room, talking about Christmas.  I couldn’t think of a single thing I wanted, (other than a small cottage )  for it seems I am totally satisfied with things like, cooking for family gatherings, taking evening walks and watching Mama make cornbread.

Dear Diary,  I am glad for the glory of bright mornings and the darkness of autumn evenings.  I am glad for having a loving family to gather round a table.  I am glad for Lyla. . .  my own child’s daughter, that reminded me how beautiful it is to “shine your light”.

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“Sing a Song of Six Spence”


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It was “pitch dark” when I got up this morning.  The house was chilly, but not nearly as cold as Saturday morning.  I was up early enough to get a lot of reading done and drink coffee as if I were a “lady of leisure”.  I went out and the morning air was so fresh, I could have “drank that too.”  I wanted to just stand there and breath it in deeply.  I really love the morning time, when so many things seem possible.  It is my favorite time to write.  I do not like too much conversation, right off.  Instead, I like to collect my thoughts and imagine for a while.  My late husband would wake and want to discuss things like “car insurance”, within minutes.  He dropped that habit, early in the game, as I was most uncooperative.

There was good news at the rabbit patch today.  I came home to a functioning stove with two working ovens.  I got a good deal as I traded  enough scrap metal, to off set the cost dramatically.  I wanted the scrap metal gone, so as to tidy up  and so I was pleased all the way around.  I am going to make that gingerbread, not long after supper.  

I am especially busy at school these days.  The classes are preparing for the holiday concert on December first.  Each class will present an international song in the native tongue of the country, studied.  One class is playing hand bells, some are playing glockenspiel and then there are the violinists, which are close to two hundred, in number.  The children are a pleasant and loving lot.  Today in the midst of a very busy time, a little boy said he had a gift for me.  He pulled a smooth, bluish rock from his pocket and presented it shyly.  How many rocks have I been given, in my life-from my own children to the many students.  I have come to love rocks.  After I expressed my appreciation, the child said he had another surprise-and he pulled out a sixpence!  It was a lovely little coin and he assured me it was ok with his mom, for me to keep it.  I told him we would put in my “treasures” chest, just in case, he needed it back.  I tucked it among seashells. a paper airplane, colorful bits of string and other rocks.  I thought of my friend, Cobbs  from the UK and made a wish for her as the six pence nestled among some autumn leaves.   What a sweet parcel I saw as I peered into the box of “treasures”-oh, we really ought to strive to “become as children”.   . . to give with such freedom, things they find lovely and want to share.

My son, Tres has a dog that gives a gift of a pine cone, or a stick whenever he sees you.  At the first sight, of a loved one, he takes off and returns with some trinket.  Cash, my own dog,  has seen this and follows suit, as well now.  Giving, is a beautiful habit, and what an appropriate time for me to be reminded of that.

By the time the gingerbread was ready, I was deep in reading some works by Thoreau.  I read another of his quotes, that I have taken  to heart.  I like Thoreau.  He makes me think- and reflect.  He also causes me to search my heart  for impurities, which I vow to cast out.  I am also reading the “Ladies of Covington”,  which does not make me think or entertain “lofty notions”.  Instead, it is more like a friendly visit with old friends, unfolding in the chapters.  Ovens stop working at their house and flowers bloom, too-just like at the rabbit patch.

A heavy frost fell at last.  It is about a month late, in comparison to former years.  How the tender shoots of winter wheat thrive in such conditions, are beyond me-but they do.  The earliest morning light on a frost covered field, creates quite a spectacle and when I saw it this morning, I thought how even the day begins with a gift.

“To affect the quality of the day, that is the highest of arts.”  ~Thoreau

In Three Days


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It is early Saturday morning at the rabbit patch.  Coffee is brewing and I have made a small fire in the little fireplace by the morning table.  This is the first cold morning of the season.  It takes a lot of gumption to be the first one up in a cold house, especially if the fire went out in the night-and I am convinced that the bed feels the best it ever will, at that particular time.  Most people have central heat and have no idea of the plight, I mention.  I promised myself again  this morning, that one day I would too.

I remembered cold mornings many moons ago, when I was a child.  There was no central heat in my grandparents house either.  They used a “Warm Morning” space heater .  I slept in the “little bedroom” just off the kitchen, Heavy quilts were piled without mercy, to ensure I wouldn’t “catch cold”.  I  always woke to the smell of coffee and bacon. . .and the rattling of  the china dishes, with bright yellow roses, on them. Grandmama allowed me one cup of coffee, which was really milk with a tablespoon of sugar and a splash of coffee.   I never fail to remember sitting at the yellow and chrome table, on cold mornings- and  to this day, I think coffee tastes better  served in a china teacup.

I knew right off this morning, that unless the weather changed drastically, I would not work outside today.  The wind made me abandon my idea to burn the garden .  I did hope that the wind blew some of the fallen leaves in desirable places, such as the garden or the patch of young woods, at the far corner of the territory.  Sunlight falls now, where shade used to, but the battle with the leaves, is still far from over.  . . .Just for today, the leaves win. 

I decided to make gingerbread.  I gathered the ingredients and hummed as I did so.  The house would soon smell of that wonderful and familiar fragrance, -and then I would make coffee.  Thankfully, before I mixed the concoction, I remembered the broken oven.  I have been wanting  gingerbread for a while.  Then and there,  I decided that as soon as I got the  new stove, I would make gingerbread.  I did make coffee, with a generous amount of cinnamon, at least.

By mid afternoon, I took a walk around the property.  It was just the right kind of weather for a brisk walk.  The wind was light and the sun was shining and bright enough to light the young dogwood up.  The wild southern vines , that I fuss about, were golden and red.  It looked like the woods were celebrating.  Christopher Robin, loves to sneak up on me, but this day he could not, as the leaves crackled beneath us, with every step.

I came in and cooked a “stove top” supper, for Christian and I .  Christopher Robin was naughty and did not come in with Cash and I and so when darkness fell and the cold “set in”  I was worried. Cash, my boxer, never wants to disappoint me and would never do such a thing.  Christopher Robin, however, does not succumb to pleading nor ranting.  He finally came in much later on-and he was hungry.

Sunday

The sky was blue right off, this morning-and streaked with clouds, in long neat rows.  I have a small fire in the den which fascinates Christopher Robin.  The fire is just big enough to take the chill out of the air .  The sounds of a small fire are about as delightful  as the cheerful flames -and are probably good for “whatever ails” you.   It is hard to be anxious about things in the presence of a fire.

It seems the more I consider what  I truly enjoy most in life, it is often the simple, primitive things that spring to mind.  In some way, this makes me  quite wealthy, as one does not need “a kings’ ransom”  to watch the moon rise  or stand beneath a sweet gum, adorned in the jewel hues of autumn.  Such collections are reliable and do not break or get lost.  They do not lose their value over time, and are apt to make the heart grateful.   I have seen the time an old pine made a difference, for me.

I started another “stove top” supper and hoped as I peeled potatoes that the new stove would be here soon.  I went out, as the soup simmered.  The afternoon was fair and not nearly as cold as yesterday.  I saw a bright red spot in  one of the rose bushes, in the “Quiet Garden” on a rose bush.  I went closer  and thought to “rescue”  the  pretty rose from the approaching cold weather.  .   . .but suddenly it flew away!  It was a cardinal,  and as he was as red as  any I had  ever seen.  What a sweet surprise it was. . .and it tickled me too.

The soup was ready, when dusk had set in.  The rabbit patch was silent except for an occasional oak leaf falling.  For three days, I have not left the property.  I have not solved a mystery, but I have dreamed “like a big-shot ”  by a friendly fire.  I have listened to music, surely inspired by God and seen a ” a ruby rose ” take flight’ . . .in just three days.

   

November Time


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A day in November is often born,

on  a frosty, foggy, chilly morn.

With the smell of  wood smoke in the air,

while  ruby leaves fall here and there.

The early light is soft, but yields,

a holy look to woods and fields.

A silent prelude heralds the day,

for song birds mostly flew away,

to somewhere north or south or west,

leaving behind their empty nests.

In November, without a rush, 

days are born in a silver hush,

like a precious gift, for all the living-

Let all of November be called Thanksgiving!

In Spite of Everything . . .


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The sun did not cast a shadow today.  I wore a coat on Thursday-and I was not sorry for that.  A misty rain fell off and on all day.  It was the kind of rain that reminded you of how light snow falls.  November is always full of “silver days”.  A lot of leaves have become vibrant shades of yellow, red and orange.  . .a lot of leaves have fallen too.  At long last, I can declare  that autumn has come to the rabbit patch.

We have not built a fire in the farmhouse, yet, though a hard freeze is in the forecast for tomorrow night.  We have taken to using blankets and wearing warmer “night clothes”.  The windows are all down and Christopher Robin is content with being a “well mannered”  house cat, these days.  

I have adjusted to the “time change” and thankfully so. It is now light when I drive to work and I get home before dark.  My heart goes out to those that work late enough that they must drive home after sunset.  In a fortnight, the days will naturally grow longer and so it really is a short lived ordeal, after all. 

My grandmother lived her last years at the rabbit patch.  She remained wise all of her life, but occasionally got confused about things, that looking back, didn’t really matter.  The changing of the clocks confused her, the last year.  She thought I would be working more hours and blamed the school.  I explained it several times, but to no avail.  It bothered her to think I would be home less.  I kept on trying to make her see that it wasn’t so- and so then she claimed the school was changing the time.  Finally, I said “Grandmama, the school is not changing the time”-plain and simple.  Grandmama asked “then who is?”  I  thought about that a second or so and  said . . “the government.”  This satisfied Grandmama and  we went on to talk about supper,  almost immediately.  

The blanket of dense clouds caused night to fall almost suddenly.  The mist changed over to light rain.  The steady rhythm of the raindrops on the fresh fallen leaves was soothing .  I had forgotten this type of sound, that only happens in November, when autumn leaves are scattered over the territory.  

Friday

School is closed today, in honor of Veterans’ Day, and so I decided to sleep a bit later,  Kyle woke me at four, as I usually get up when he does.  He was a bit alarmed, but I reminded him that school was closed.  The house was chilly and it felt so good not to have to stir at that dark hour.  Christian came in at six to rouse me.  This woke Cash, who needs to go out the second he wakes.  Christopher Robin goes out with Cash and so he started crying . . .well, I got up and made coffee.  The sky was the familiar “silver” and a cool wind was blowing.  I expect we will build a fire tonight as the weatherman reminded us again of the hard freeze.  I will gather the last of the roses today . . and I will call Mr. Ellis.  

With Thanksgiving being just “around the corner” . . .the oven stopped working,  this week.  I have a two oven stove.  It is an older model and I can not complain . . but I want to.  Thankfully, I found another one-used of course, that may be delivered today.  The “refund check” that I received on Monday-and was marked for Christmas, will cover the cost.  I want to complain about that, too.  Instead, I will remember, that things always work out somehow.  I have lived “paycheck to paycheck”  for a long while.  I buy food at “sale prices” and wear second-hand clothes.  We have never missed a meal and  always have what we need.  It is “second nature” for me to practice thrift, now.  I have many accounts similar to the “the oven and the the refund check”.  

A few years back, on the day of Christmas Eve, I had driven to town to get a few things that would complete my shopping.  I did especially well and was so satisfied with my purchases.  Somehow, I had managed to buy a few extra gifts.  I wanted to celebrate this and decided to splurge and buy supper “out” for the boys and I.  It was raining and dark, when I called home to tell the boys how happy I was and that I was bringing supper home.  When I hung up, the car cut off, in the rain, on the highway.  I mean stopped altogether.  Things went down hill quickly.  Kyle, Daddy and two neighbors came to get the car, in that cold rain.  Daddy had the car pulled to his house.  These things shake me to the core.  Later on, when we were all safely in, Daddy went over all the things that may have caused the car to shut off.  They were all expensive and I couldn’t have afforded a one of them.  I was glad that I had another week off to figure things out.  I made up my mind that I would not feel guilty, for spending an extra hundred dollars on gifts, nor buying supper.  I vowed to enjoy Christmas . .  and pray.  People laugh because I am apt to pray about anything.

Early Christmas morning, Daddy called and said I had a special present this year.  He was bringing my car home.  He had looked at the car, as the rain had stopped that morning, and found a loose wire.  That was all it was.  We hung up and I started laughing and crying at the same time.  I realised, I was always cared for, things always work out . . I was thankful and told God so.  It seems really, I always have money, but rarely do I get to record it in my ledger or store it up in a bank.

Truthfully, we all must “Walk by Faith, not by sight.” as it is written.  This does not encourage me to live irresponsibly. . . and I continue to learn and understand more.  My dear friend, Rae has shown me by her example.

Rae had stopped working in March, two years ago .  This was unexpected and Rae was trying to adjust.  In April, Raes’ husband died suddenly.  This too, was unexpected. Rae was just heartbroken and the future was daunting.  Rae, like me lives in a big old house.  Her sons are grown and married with children.  I asked Rae a year or so later , how she was doing financially.  She had never shown a great deal of stress about money, but she is not a “big spender” by nature.  Rae told me that she never worried about money and yet her income was very meager.  I asked her how she never felt to worry.  Rae said “God always provided and she trusted in that.”  She was so very “matter of fact”.   I started laughing as I told her that “she acted like God had plenty of money, while I acted like He had $10.00!”

How privileged I am to live this beautiful life.  It seems of little consequence to worry.  In spite of everything,  I expect things to work out . . .because,  really- they always do.

Dear Rabbit Patch Diary,  I am glad for  “November rain” and silver skies.  I am glad for friends, like Rae, who bring light to my life and prove my wealth over and over.   . . and I am very glad that there is a “peace that passes understanding.”

As If It Were My Birthday . . .


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It is a quiet afternoon at the rabbit patch-an unfamiliar kind of quiet.  There was no “Sunday Dinner” as daddy did not feel well this morning.  Kyle and Christian are with friends.  Cash and Christopher Robin are sleeping.  The last  of the cotton is being picked in a field, just “across the way”.   The drone of the combine acts like a lullaby as it drifts through the open window, by the “morning table”.  

It seems, I am  “left to my own devices”.  I am liberated from  housekeeping duties, as I cleaned yesterday,  well into the night.  I did manage to find a task or two in the afternoon-and since there are no”left-overs” from dinner, I will cook a good supper.   What a good time it would be to practice the cello, except I am only borrowing one now and I do not yet take it home.

  I listened to several enlightening lessons-  all focused on proper living.  The resounding message was to love yourself and others- and to be grateful.  The business of loving yourself really , is to remind ourselves that we truly are “beautifully and wonderfully made”.  The business of loving others, to me, could be summed up by doing our best to “understand the heart ” of others.  Certainly, my account is a “watered down” version of this ancient lesson-and pales in comparison to the beautiful presentation  by the ninety-three year old sage, I was listening to, but I was inspired all over again, to deepen my love for others.

I called a dear friend about mid afternoon.  Her name is Julie and I have known her since I was a young girl, but we happened to become neighbors, a score of years ago,  and that is when we developed a friendship, that bound us mightily.  I have laughed more with Julie than I have with most people. We do not have to “bar subjects”, but are free to discuss anything, as we please.  . . somehow we always end up talking about God.  Julie is well studied and quite “sharp”, so she provides interesting conversations, you don’t soon forget.

Julie has  a fair amount of ailments, which all  stemmed from high blood pressure.  A  stroke blinded her for a little while, but thankfully she recovered and regained her vision.  Her kidneys, did not recover.  She has been on dialysis a few years.  This summer, Julie had to have both of her legs amputated.  Julie is my age–fifty-eight.

Do not think Julie is in “dire straights” . . .or  feels pitiful for herself.  You would be mistaken. . .for Julie has the heart of a warrior, with her battles-and an iron clad faith.  Julie is thankful that the surgery relieved  her of pain.  She  is grateful to be liberated from the pain medicine she had to rely on, at one time.  Julie, unaware, inspired me, a second time  this day.  She had convinced me that living a life of gratitude was not only joyful-but peaceful and powerful too. 

By the time we hung up, I needed to turn a lamp on.  I sat for a short while, thinking that the day had passed with such generosity- as if it were my birthday.  I sat in the twilight, and I hoped and prayed to do better.  I wished better-for the whole world . . . until, the first stars came out . . . and  supper was ready  . . .and the boys were on the way home.  

 Dear Diary,  I want to love more . . and there is so much to love.  I must remember to be grateful too,   for there is so much to be grateful for . . friends are surely one of them. 

 

    

 

Have You Seen the Moon?


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November has come to the rabbit patch in a friendly fashion.  Days are born slowly with fog and make the territory look enchanted, for a while.  The sky has been shades of lavender and pink-and the sun a very bright tangerine color at dawn. By mid morning ,  the November sky is a soft blue and the air is mild.  The woodlands are only hinting of autumn now , but daily, I see the leaves brightening. Fresh plowed fields are littered now with autumn leaves in colors like gold and ruby.  Last night, Christian and I watched a silver moon rise over a field.  I was thinking how beautiful it was to stand with my son, now a young man, by a field, in the twilight hour.  We have done it a hundred times before, but this does not spoil the effect in the least. Sometimes, one of the older children will call and say “Mom, have you seen the moon ?” .   . .and I know they remember.

Saturday

It is a pleasant thing to wake up as you please.  Christopher Robin, my cat, was having cream at seven.  Cash, my boxer, had returned to his station . . beside me for more sleep.  I was having coffee.  Oh, everything is changing at the rabbit patch.  The young woods have flashes of yellow and apricot.  The earth is spangled with leaves in all sorts of autumn hues.  I love the way it looks, but my Mama would not.  Mama will not have a dozen leaves in her yard, on any given day.  She is the same way over pine straw and the hateful pine cones, that prick your hands without mercy.  It does not matter the season, Mama’s yard is tidy. . . to think it used to be a pasture.

I remember Daddy digging trees up from the woods, and bringing them to the yard to plant.  He had selected dogwood, sycamore, long leaf pine and oak.  I doubt the average person could do so now.  It was probably second nature to daddy.  The sycamores were planted for quick shade.  The dogwoods were planted-because they were dogwoods.  Now daddy has apple trees (some he grafted), pear, blueberries and a huge grapevine.  Mama planted flowers.  The whole yard is full of azaleas, peonies and tulips.  Mama has spider lilies, from her mother and a hydrangea too. In the spring, folks slow down on that country road, when they are going by the house.

Flowers that are passed between loving hands are somehow different from the ones bought at a garden center. Most every southern home has something “from a mamas’ yard” or a great aunt or grandmother.  Of course, at the rabbit patch, I have “Miss Susie” flowers-which are really tanseys-and  “Miss  Sylvia” irises that are a watery shade of blue-besides the family heirlooms.   . . The three generation spider lilies, Grandmamas’  “running periwinkle”  and a cape jasmine my parents rooted.  I have to mention the purple loosestrife from Mama, again.  She gave them to me from her own yard because they bloom too late in the season, to suit her.  Already, I am plotting how to transfer these flowers to the next rabbit patch, with a smaller house and yard.  . .on some day.

By mid morning today, the light was still dim.  If the wind subsides the least bit , I may burn the garden- then again, Kyle would be disappointed to miss the annual fire.   Besides, Christian smells rain.  So instead,  I will tend to the housekeeping and browse through the “Christmas Closet”. 

I have always fared better to shop through out the year.  In this way, I remain sensible about the budget and most importantly,  preserve the beautiful Spirit of Christmas.  A gift of  a fine soap suits me and the boys ask for socks without fail.  Brant likes books and Christian will want guitar strings, paint and sketch pads.  Such things satisfy us-they always have- Hence,  today, I will take an inventory of the “secrets” in the Christmas closet.

  I put the windows up as  I went about my chores. Christopher Robin slept through the whole process.  The Farm Life community was quiet.  Combines and tractors sat idle under shelters.  Dogs here do not bark without reason.  They are too well cared for, for such nonsense.  Not one dog had any reason today, to bark.  The only sound to hear was the light breeze stirring through the trees , which helped my floors dry quickly.  In no time, the fragrances of rosemary and peppermint soaps spurred me on to complete more tasks until it was late in the afternoon.

I do not mind the time change, as most do.  What I wish, is that we would stop altering those dreadful clocks altogether.  The sun itself is the only authority on time, after all.  It is much more pleasant to measure time by lengthening shadows.  Morning comes when the sun rises, and the clock has no say in the matter.  I also do not believe that a day in July should last til nine pm.  It all seems quite  an unnatural affair to me.  It is the same with seasons -they come and go as they please, no matter how we call them.

Still, I will abide by the rules and if I can find a clock that works at the rabbit patch, I will restore it to the correct time.

Dear Rabbit Patch Diary,  I am glad for parents that provided a loving and beautiful home.   . .for a daddy that walked in the woods so he could plant trees . .and a mother that planted flowers.  I am glad for the sun that does not tell the time with “bells and whistles” but gently chides us through the days with changing light-and I am glad that sometimes my children ask me “Have you seen the moon?”

 

Especially in November


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This day has been nothing short of glorious.  The cold wind and rain have passed and were replaced with warm golden light that lit the trees up.  Today, I saw shades of amber creeping into the landscape.  In a few weeks the lowly sweetgum will be one of the loveliest sights in the countryside.  

I came home yesterday and thankfully the drive was as pleasant as I expected.  I left  in the later afternoon.  Jenny, Lyla and I had a delightful visit with Wills’ mom, Miss Claudia.  We carried a huge basket full of things like fried chicken and candy.  She was especially thrilled with her very own peach cobbler.  Miss Claudia is very partial to peaches.  

I also got to visit with Miss Thelma.  Miss Thelma lives in the riverside village with her husband, Mr. Ellis.  They are both in their nineties.  Mr. Ellis is a  decorated hero from World War II and Miss Thelma never lets me forget it.  She remains very proud of his service.  He was the only survivor of a plane crash at Normandy.  Their conversation with one another is so loving, it makes me cry.  Mr. Ellis always says “Isn’t my wife beautiful?”  -and she is.  Miss Thelma said Mr. Ellis was handsome and  she had pictures to prove it.  Miss Thelma writes letters to her nieces and nephews.  Her penmanship is as elegant as any I have seen.  The letters are quite elaborate and look like art.  Miss Thelma attended college on a scholarship for piano and voice.  Eventually, she became a teacher.  Students, she taught forty years ago still keep in touch.  That is some legacy.    She tells me stories about a friend she had for many years, named Edith  and makes me love someone, I never knew. 

On Tuesday, I went back to work.  Tuesday was as beautiful as  Monday.  October was an especially nice time and I will miss it.  Now, it is November and with it comes one of my favorite holidays-Thanksgiving.  The time to gather for the sake of expressing gratitude, together.  As much as I love Christmas, I do not like to rush through Thanksgiving.   Thanksgiving comes suddenly enough.  It is but weeks away and that is hard to believe . Our menu for the dinner has little variation from year to year.  I always ask everyone what they want and they say “what we had last year”  without fail.  Sometimes, there is a new dessert, but Jenny always wants cheesecake and Mama wants cranberries.  They all want the “biscuit stuffing” that Grandmama told me how to make.  Daddy does not like turkey at all, so  I usually have a ham or barbecued chicken as well.  Breakfast is scant, that morning, so we are all especially hungry by noon.  

In some way, November fills me full of hope.  It is the month to recount our blessings, collectively-to remember what is good  -and to consider how we can give back.  At times, “a word fitly  spoken” is needed for someone.  We can extend grace, and we can pray for one another. Even the “shoe string budget “of the rabbit patch affords such beautiful gifts, . . for the heart of the rabbit patch is a storehouse of wealth,  collected from the generosity of others.    I remember that, always . . .but especially in November.

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The beautiful, Miss Thelma